Saturday, December 29, 2007

Iron sharpens Iron

There was once a young pastor who was struggling to make ends meet. He and his wife sat down one night to take another look at their finances, hoping to pinch a little more out of their meager budget. They had already eliminated all the extras; now was the time to look at the grocery list. They clipped coupons and planned cheaper meals. The wife agreed to let her husband take over the shopping, because he had a better skill at comparison shopping. So, he went out to save them money.

He did a good job. He bought items on double-coupon days, during "buy one, get one" sales, and bought their staples in bulk at a warehouse store. They set up a few shelves in their basement to stack the bulk items and the extras they were amassing at cheaper prices.

A few months went by. One day the wife said, "We're out of salt; run down to the basement and bring up a new bag." But when the husband brought up a fresh bag, it was as hard as a rock. A quick look at the other bags in the basement revealed the same problem: the salt had hardened in the damp basement and was useless.

The husband was devastated at the loss: not just the salt, but all his good, money-saving intentions. He felt foolish, and then determined to make it all work somehow. He took the salt to the garage and tried to chip at it with some of his sharp tools. He tried dropping the salt blocks on the concrete floor to break them into smaller chunks. On he went trying to gouge, hack, and otherwise destroy the hard salt bricks. Finally, in a moment of genius or just sheer frustration, he rubbed two salt bricks together. The friction between the two created loosened the grains and salt began to shower slowly on the floor! He got a baking pan to catch the salt as he rubbed them over and over, letting their natural friction do all the work. The only thing that would break down the salt was another block of salt.

There is a proverb that says, " As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another." (Prov. 27:17) We need the exposure and yes, even the friction, of other people to bring out necessary qualities in ourselves. That's why a true friend is so valuable: he is honest with you; she cares about you; he will help you improve; she will want the very best for you.

I've had the privilege this week of visiting friends that moved away to California a few years ago. They are in Maryland for a week due to a family need, and I got to reconnect over a cup of coffee and a lot of conversation. Both of them are dear to me, but especially Sue, because we are made up of the same stuff. We're like two bricks of salt! It takes one of us to rub the hard knots out of the other, and spending time with Sue and Dan brings out a better flavor in me.


Monday, December 24, 2007

Humor

In case you can't read the headline on the poor guy's newspaper: "Sales Way Down This Year."

Sunday, December 23, 2007

It's Just Not Christmas Until . . .

It's Just Not Christmas Until . . .

  • My mother has made 8 kinds of cookies (if not even more!)
  • We've brought up a few of my younger sister's finest moments from Christmases past (ex: the year "the cat" broke the head off the ceramic wise man of the nativity set--and then "the cat" conveniently balanced the broken head back on the statue so Mom wouldn't find out).
  • We've all admired my cousin Keith's artwork on his hand-designed Christmas card
  • I've been given a baggie of hard candy and an orange at my home church
  • My family has our annual Christmas party and even the leftovers have been eaten the next day.
  • I've laughed my way through the Beam family Christmas letter. While other families brag about their family's triumphs and accomplishments, the Beams focus on the year's tear-your-hair-out, scream-in-frustration hassles and headaches.
  • We have family communion at church on Christmas Eve and then go home to eat cream of crab soup.
Feel free to add your own "It's Not Christmas Until . . . " thoughts!

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Living a Parable

Pastor's Challenge Shocks Congregation

By HELEN O'NEILL,
AP
Posted: 2007-12-22 07:00:06

CHAGRIN FALLS, Ohio (Dec. 20) - The Rev. Hamilton Coe Throckmorton shivered with anticipation as he gazed at the loot - wads of $50 bills piled high beside boxes of crayons in a Sunday school classroom.

Cautiously, he locked the door. Then he started counting.

It was a balmy Friday evening in September. From several floors below faint melodies drifted up - the choir practicing for Sunday service.

Throckmorton was oblivious. For hours, perched awkwardly on child-sized wooden stools surrounded by biblical murals and children's drawings, the pastor and a handful of coconspirators concentrated on the count.

Forty-thousand dollars. Throckmorton smiled in satisfaction as he stashed the money in a safe.

That Sunday, the 52-year-old minister donned his creamy white robes, swept to the pulpit and delivered one of the most extraordinary sermons of his life.

First he read from the Gospel of Matthew.

"And unto one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one; to every man according to his ability."

Then he explained the parable of the talents, which tells of the rich master who entrusts three servants with a sum of money - "talents" - and instructs them to go forth and do good. The master lavishes praise on the two servants who double their money. But he casts into the wilderness the one so afraid to take a risk that he buries his share.

Throckmorton spends up to 20 hours working on his weekly homily, and his clear diction, contemplative message and ringing voice command the church. Gazing down from the pulpit that Sunday, Throckmorton dropped his bombshell.

Like the master, he would entrust each adult with a sum of money - in this case, $50. Church members had seven weeks to find ways to double their money, the proceeds to go toward church missions.

"Live the parable of the talents!" Throckmorton exhorted, as assistants handed out hundreds of red envelops stuffed with crisp $50 bills and stunned church members did quick mental calculations, wondering where all the money had come from. There are about 1,700 in the congregation, though not everyone attends each week.

The cash, Throckmorton explained, was loaned by several anonymous donors.

In her regular pew at the back of the church, where she has listened to sermons for 40 years, 73-year-old Barbara Gates gasped. What kind of kooky nonsense is this, she thought.

"Sheer madness," sniffed retired accountant Wayne Albers, 85, to his wife, Marnie, who hushed him as he whispered loudly. "Why can't the church just collect money the old-fashioned way?"

In a center pew, Ann Nagy's eyes moistened as she considered her ailing, beloved father, his suffering, and the song she had written to comfort him near death. She nudged her husband Scott. "Give me your $50," she whispered. Nagy knew exactly what she would do.

Throckmorton wrapped up his two morning services by saying that children would get $10. And he assured the congregation that anyone who didn't feel comfortable could simply return the money. No consignment to outer darkness for those who didn't participate.

Throckmorton is warm and engaging and approachable, as comfortable talking about the Cleveland Indians baseball team as he is discussing scripture. At the Federated Church, he is known simply as Hamilton.

But as church members spilled into the late summer sunshine that morning to ponder their skills and their souls, there were many who thought: Hamilton is really pushing us this time.

"There was definitely this tension, this pressure to live up to something," said Hal Maskiell, a 62-year-old retired Navy pilot who spent days trying to figure out how to meet the challenge.

Maskiell's passion is flying a four-seater Cessna 172 Skyhawk over the Cuyahoga County hills. He decided to use his $50 to rent air time from Portage County airport and charge $30 for half-hour rides. Church members eagerly signed up. Maskiell was thrilled to get hours of flying time, and he raised $700.

His girlfriend, Kathy Marous, 55, was far less confident. What talents do I have, she thought dejectedly. She was tempted to give the money back.

And then Marous found an old family recipe for tomato soup, one she hadn't made in 19 years. She remembered how much she had enjoyed the chopping and the cooking and the canning and the smells. With Hal's encouragement Marous dug out her pots. She bought three pecks of tomatoes. Suddenly she was chopping and cooking and canning again. At $5 a jar, she made $180.

"I just never imagined people would pay money for the things I made," Marous exclaimed.

Others felt the same way. Barbara Gates raised $450 crafting pendants from beads and sea glass - pieces she had casually made for her grandchildren over the years. Kathie Biggin created fanciful little red-nosed Rudolph pins and sold them for $2.50. Twelve-year-old Amanda Horner pooled her money with friends, stocked up at JoAnn's fabric store, and made dozens of colorful fleece baby blankets, which were purchased by church members and then donated to a local hospital.

And 87-year-old Bob Burrows rediscovered old carpentry skills and began selling wooden bird-feeders.

But it wasn't the money; everyone said so. It was something else, something far less tangible but yet so very real. For seven weeks an almost magical sense of excitement and energy and camaraderie infused the elegant red-brick church on Bell Street, spilling over into homes and hearts as the parable of the talents came alive.

In her sun-filled studio on Strawberry Lane, Shirley Culbertson felt it - a joyful sense of purpose that she had rarely experienced since her husband passed two years ago. Culbertson, 81, is a gifted painter and watercolors fill her house. But she discovered another talent during this time - knitting whimsical eight-inch stuffed dolls with button noses and floppy hats. She raised $90.

Zooming down country roads clinging to the back of a leather-clad biker, Florence Cross felt it too. For the challenge, Barry Biggin had parked his 2006 Harley Davidson Road King outside the church, offering 12-mile rides for $30. Cross was the first to sign up. Never mind that she is in her mid-80s, had never been on a bike, or that her husband of 60 years had to hoist her up.

"Oh, it was such a thrill!" said Cross, her face glowing at the memory. Her friends now call her "Harley Girl."

Martine Scheuermann lived the parable in her Elm Street kitchen, transforming it into an "applesauce factory" for several weeks. The 49-year-old human resources director would rise at 6 a.m. on Sundays in order to have warm batches ready for sampling at church services.

In his origami-filled bedroom on Bradley Street, Paul Cantlay lived the parable too. Surrounded by sheets of colored construction paper, the 9-year-old crafted paper dragons and stars and sailboats. He set up an origami stand at the end of his street, charged 50 cents to $5 depending on the piece, and raised $68.

Talents began multiplying at such a rate that the church held a bazaar after services on two consecutive Sundays for people to display - and sell - their wares.

The pretty little village on the Chagrin River falls had never seen anything quite like it. Everyone seemed to be talking about the talent challenge: over the clatter of coffee cups at Dink's restaurant, at the Fireside bookshop on the green, sipping drinks at the Gamekeeper's Taverne. Even members of other churches weighed in: Have you heard what's happening at Federated?

"Anyone can open their wallet and give cash," Kris Tesar said. "This was just an extraordinary process of exploration and discovery and of challenging ourselves. It became bigger than any one of us or than any individual talent."

Tesar, a 58-year-old retired nurse, discovered her talent in buckets of flip-flops for sale at Old Navy. She stocked up on yarn and beads and made dozens of funky, fluffy decorative footwear that were a huge hit with teens. Tesar raised $550 for the church, is still taking orders and is thinking of starting a business. Now even her children call her the "flip-flop lady."

People also got to know the "hen lady" - Gabrielle Quintin, who took to raising chickens on a whim 23 years ago when she moved into a 180-year-old house with a barn. Her "ladies," as Quintin calls her backyard flock, provide a welcome distraction from her nursing job in a cancer center. Quintin decided to put her brood to work for the church. For $10 church members could "hire-a-hen" and get three dozen fresh eggs complete with a photograph of the "lady" who laid them.

"It wasn't exactly spiritual, but I had a lot of fun," said Quintin, whose husband, Mike, made glass birdfeeders. "And it was just this great way of bringing everyone together and connecting with the church."

Kathy Wellman quilted. Mary Hobbs knit shawls and penciled portraits. Cathy Hatfield auctioned a ride in her hot-air balloon. Norma and Trent Bobbitt pooled their money with another church member to hire a harpist from the Cleveland orchestra and host an elegant evening dinner party. Folks paid $50 each to attend and the Bobbitts made over $1,200.

And physician Peter Yang took over shifts from other doctors in his partnership (he used his $50 for gas to get to the hospital) and raised $3,000.

The deadline to return the money was Sunday, Oct. 28. Nervously, some church council members suggested posting plain clothes security guards at services that day. But Throckmorton would have none of it. He insisted that the spirit of the challenge, which had already inspired so much goodwill, would carry them safely through. And it did.

Organ music filled the church as people silently filed down the aisle, dropped their proceeds into baskets, and offered testimonials about what living the parable had meant to them. Throckmorton thanked everyone for their generosity. Then he started counting.

A week later he delivered the joyful news: They had more than doubled the amount distributed.

The initial take was $38,195 over the loan, but the amount is still growing. Some people didn't make the deadline, or extended it in order to finish their projects.

The final sum will be divided equally between three charities: One-third will go to a school library in South Africa where the church is involved in an AIDS mission; one-third will go to micro-loan organizations that provide seed money for small businesses in developing countries; one-third will help the Interfaith Hospitality Network in Cleveland, specifically programs for homeless women.

Throckmorton is asked all the time if the talent challenge will become an annual event, but he is doubtful. It was a special time and a special idea, he says, and he is not sure it could be re-created or relived.

Yet in a very real sense, it lives on. Church members who never knew each other have become friends. And orders for applesauce, flip-flops and Rudolph pins are still rolling in for Christmas.

There are other, more poignant reminders. Like Ann Nagy's haunting tribute to her father, who died of brain cancer on Oct. 11.

Nagy, 44, has always been a singer with a clear lovely voice. It wasn't until her father grew ill and moved into a hospice that she started writing songs. She found solace in the music and a way of communicating that was sometimes easier than spoken words.

At hospice, patients are taught five simple truths to tell their loved ones before they die: I'll miss you. I love you. I forgive you. I'm sorry. Goodbye.

Borrowing from that theme, Nagy wrote a farewell song for her Dad. She pooled her $50 talent money with her husband's share and cut a CD to sell to church members. Ironically it was finished just an hour before her father passed, on Oct. 11. Nagy stood by his bed and sang it for him anyway.

On Nov. 11 - her father's 72nd birthday - Throckmorton preached a sermon about dying. He invited Nagy to the altar. There, accompanied by a cellist and a pianist she sang "Before You Go."

Her voice soared. The congregation wept. The parable of the talents had never seemed so alive.

Copyright 2007 The Associated Press.

Friday, December 21, 2007

Elvaton Day Nursery

Today, after 41 years, my family business closed its doors.

My grandmother started a day care center in 1966, long before day care centers were on every corner. She left the plastics plant where she'd been working and began to take children into her home, using the living room and dining room as the play area. Over the years, it expanded: an entire wing of the building was added to make extra rooms for more children, until the day care could accommodate 60 kids. My mother, working there from age 14 to the present, went from cooking and cleaning to teaching to directing and finally owning the business. My sister and I both worked there for years; as soon as we were able to dust and scrub toilets, we got pocket money for helping. Both of us eventually completed our Maryland early-childhood certification and at different times were on full-time staff.

However, day care has become increasingly more popular over the years, and the business has become far more competitive. Maryland's public education is available for younger children now, forcing our enrollment lower. Many other factors encouraged the final decision to close the business.

It's a loss in many ways. My mother has never worked a job anywhere else, and at the age of 50-something, is starting over. My sister lost a job where she could bring her fourteen-month old with her every day. Employees who were more like family are also job-hunting, so it's not easy to say goodbye.

But it's also a huge, exciting opportunity. The building and the property have potential for future endeavors, and God willing, it will stay in our family for generations to come. It just won't be a day care center anymore.

Many of my formative memories were on the playground or in the playrooms. I made a lot of friends and at least one enemy--a vindictive (psycho) mother who I literally feared would torch the place during the night. But mostly, I remember the sweet laughter of childhood, and I hope that all the children who passed through our doors from 1966 to 2007 cherish that same memory.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Christmas as a Witness

Last night I did a service in Capital Heights, Maryland for Pastor Sullivan McGraw. The service went well, and I appreciated the chance to meet the folks there who have already been supporting me for a few years.

After the service, the pastor commented that he and his wife still had some Christmas shopping to do, so he was trying to get out of the church a little earlier than many Wednesday nights. We had a little chitchat about shopping--the crowded stores, the benefits of online shopping, and more.

It reminded me of a conversation I had years ago with the Palestinian mother of one of my students. She and her husband were pharmacists who raised their two daughters in the US until they were about 12; the whole family then returned to their homeland. I asked her if there was anything she missed about life in the States, and she answered, "Christmas."

I thought that was a little funny for a Muslim to miss Christmas, so I asked her about it. She said, "I loved the whole season. Joyful music plays in every store. People are nice to each other in stores and at work. They wish each other well and give gifts; they stop thinking about themselves. I don't know--it was just happy."

I reflected on Christmas here and I agreed with her. There was nothing like that in Palestine--not at any point in the year.

I wondered what specifically it was that made it seem happy to her. She didn't think about the crowds, the expense, the obligation of giving gifts to people that give you one. She didn't focus on the time it takes to write and send cards, or shop for the perfect gift, or the hassle of cooking all the goodies for an endless cycle of parties. She felt the joy of Christmas (and she wasn't even aware of the true meaning of the holiday!)

In all of our merry-making and celebration, we have the chance to spread joy to folks who may not have any other witness of Christ in their lives.

(this site is experiencing technical difficulties--sorry about the bright green text.)

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Tale of the Envelopes

I've been meaning to do a newsletter for quite some time--months, in fact. It's just that when I'm traveling on furlough, there isn't much exciting to report, so I tend to put it off.

Two weeks ago, I decided that I had to do a newsletter before the holidays, serving as a Christmas letter and an update on my itineration. Doing these newsletters is a huge production, involving many steps: writing, editing, and printing (or getting color copies) the letter itself. Then comes the envelopes: return address labels, mailing address labels, and stamps. I use a "mail merge" process to the address labels, so I have to update the information before I print them. Pastors change churches, and churches change addresses; Ariel changes her data files.

I printed 345 copies of my newsletter, changing ink cartridges two or three times. When it snowed two weeks ago, I was out (like a crazy person) driving in the snow to the store just to get more ink. By that point, I just wanted to get the things out in the mail! I labeled them all, but the next day, when I put them in the freezing mailbox, I did notice that the labels seemed to curl off on the ends--I assumed it was the cold. I told myself that as soon as they were back in a warm place, they'd be fine.

Unfortunately, I was wrong. At least 50 of these envelopes have come back to me in the mail, bearing no address label, but a post-office stamp telling me to put a "correct address" on them. Of course, the stamps are canceled, so I can't reuse the envelope or stamp. The worst part is, I have no idea which churches got them and which didn't. For the churches that haven't received one, my apologies!

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Christmas Music

I'm still trying to figure out how to link to youtube here on my blog, but in the meantime, I don't want you to miss out on quite possibly the best Christmas medley EVER! (make sure your sound it turned on!) Just click on this link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fe11OlMiz8

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Thoughts Inspired by Tolkien

I spend hours driving alone in my car on my furloughs, so last time around, I got hooked on books on CD. Cracker Barrel has a great rental program with the latest bestsellers, and the public library has longer, unabridged classics (sometimes slightly damaged, but free). I also check at outlet malls for discounted audio books that I might listen to more than once. In 2004, I found the entire Lord of the Rings trilogy on CD in a discount bin, and the value was even further increased by the fact that the audio trilogy is 57 hours long! That's a lot of drive-time entertainment. But before I could open them, I left for my term and they didn't make the final cut when I was packing my limited luggage.

Last month, I dug them out of storage, and I've just finished the 19 hour Fellowship of the Ring (book 1 in the series). Last week, I was listening to a dramatic portion in which the ring wraiths are attacking Frodo, his hobbit friends, and "Strider" as they make camp upon a high mountain. Strider is the only human, and since he is a warrior, he is most likely to fight off the ring wraiths. Frodo and the other hobbits are child sized and childlike in their personalities; they've never done battle in their lives. Strider grabs his sword and yells for them all to grab their short blades and face outward around the fire ring, preparing for the onslaught. I thought to myself, If that were me, I would've told Strider to do all the fighting. How could Frodo be expected to fight off the much more powerful ring wraiths? Strider was the only one truly prepared for battle, yet Frodo and his hobbit companions each fight valiantly, whether they were capable or not.

I'm not one of those people who find a spiritual experience in every page of Tolkien's masterpiece, but I did have a small epiphany:

I've never been asked to do spiritual battle alone. Through Christ, I am more than a conqueror, because I have Him fighting next to me, for me; I am not sent out against the Enemy alone or unprotected. However, I do not cower in hiding and expect Christ to do everything, either. We are all commanded to arm ourselves both defensively and offensively in preparation for spiritual warfare (Eph. 6). I won't be able to avoid a spiritual fight, whether I feel ready or not, but I will always have Christ by my side.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Cookie Monster


Today my nieces Sydney and Ellie are here at the house; my mother and I are babysitting. Sydney got to help us with cookie baking for the holidays. Her job was to roll the snickerdoodle dough in the cinnamon sugar, but I caught her sneaking some cookie dough into her mouth rather than the sugar bowl.

Monday, December 10, 2007

Holiday Eating Tips

1. Avoid carrot sticks. Anyone who puts carrots on a holiday buffet table knows nothing of the Christmas spirit. In fact, if you see carrots, leave immediately. Go next door, where they're serving sweet and sour meatballs.

2. Drink as much eggnog as you can. And quickly. You can't find it any other time of the year. So drink up! Who cares that it only has 10,000 calories in every sip. It's not as you you're going to turn into an eggnog-aholic or something. It's a treat. Enjoy it. Have one for me. Have two. It's Christmas.

3. If something comes with gravy, use it. That's the whole point of gravy. Gravy does not stand alone. Pour it on. Make a volcano out of your mashed potatoes. Fill it with gravy. Eat the whole volcano. Repeat.

4. As for mashed potatoes, always ask if they are made with whole or skim milk. If it's skim milk, pass. Why bother? It's like buying a sports car with an automatic transmission.

5. Do not have a snack before going to a party in an effort to control your eating. The whole purpose of going to a Christmas party is to eat other people's food for free. Lots of it. Hello?!

6. Under no circumstances should you exercise between now and New Year's. You can do that in January when you have nothing else to do. This is the time for long naps, which you'll need after circling the buffet table while carrying a 10-pound plate of food and that vat of eggnog.

7. If you come across something really good at the buffet table, like frosted Christmas cookies in the shape and size of Santa, position yoursef near them and don't budge. Have as many of you can before becoming the center of attention. They're like a beautiful pair of shoes. If you leave them behind, you'll never see them again.

8. Same for pies. Apple. Pumpkin. Pecan. Have a slice of each. Or, if you don't like pecan, have two apples and one pumpkin. Always have three. When else do you get to have more than one dessert? Labor Day?

9. Did someone mention fruit cake? Granted, it's loaded with the mandatory celebratory calories, but avoid it at all cost. I mean, have some standards!

10. One final tip: if you don't feel terrible when you leave the party or get up from the table, you haven't been paying attention. Reread this tips: start over, but hurry; January is just around the corner!

** I got this from a Christmas banquet at my home church on Saturday night. My apologies to the real, unknown author. This is not my original work.

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Sick

Yet another sign that winter is here: I'm sick. I've had a cold for a few weeks now, that just seems to hang on and on. My nieces have all been sick, and between the three of them, it seems like germs just get passed back and forth. All three of them are too young to get "cover your mouth" so I suppose its understandable that the rest of us can't get rid of our colds.

Dad continues to receive good reports from his doctors about the hip infection. We think he'll soon get the "all-clear" confirmation. Thanks for your prayers for him!

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Proof of Winter

My bedroom (here at my parents house) has a skylight right above the bed. It makes a perfect observation point for the weather when I wake up each morning. Today there was a dusting of snow across it, so I couldn't wait to hop up out of bed to see how much snow was laying on the ground.

It's not much, but it's enough to know that winter has firmly planted her feet and she isn't going anywhere soon. I enjoy watching the snow flakes fall; I never get enough of it when I'm overseas. I always feel a little thrill ("snow day!") that takes me back to childhood, when I didn't have to go to school. It felt like a free gift of time, something I appreciate more and more as I get older. Of course, today I still have work to do, newsletters to get out, financial reports to finish.

But at least I can do those things while watching out the window at the snow falling.

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Sightseeing with Sheila


As I mentioned, I've had a friend visiting for a few days; I'm sorry that I was unable to post. I've been busy traipsing hither and yon in the local tourist spots.

Wednesday we went to Washington, DC and saw the monuments and other sights around the Mall. We went into the National Archives to see the exhibit "From the Schoolhouse to the White House: the schooldays of the Presidents." I had read a blurb on this exhibit and thought it would be interesting. It was a truly fascinating collection of memoribilia including photos, report cards, compositions and essays, sports awards, teacher's memories, and even film footage of the 20th centuary Presidents. I enjoyed the glimpse of average boyhood of young men later to become powerful and famous leaders. I had never been to the Archives, so this was a new addition to my usual list of "touring" sites for friends and visitors. After walking blocks and blocks, feeling every step in my calves, we metro'ed back home and watched a movie in comfortable chairs!

On Thursday, we did downtown Annapolis: St. Anne's, the Naval Academy, shopping, and touring the State House. I think I probably got more historic interest out of it than Sheila, since it's my state history, but Sheila loves historical architechture. I knew that Annapolis would have lots more architechtural interest for her, as a West Coaster, than Baltimore. Plus, it's just quaint and picturesque. We had "high tea" at Reynold's Tavern before she left for her medical conference at the hospital this weekend.